I only ever log back on here when I want to vent and ramble. Guess who has another crush. This one is a little different, however. This guy, D, is 20 - a couple months younger than me. I mean, when I first met him I thought he was cute but what really stood out for me is his love of Christ and how passionate he gets during Praise and Worship at CU. My heart couldn’t take it. This was a first for me, actually having a crush on someone who actually is Christian. As per usual, I let my heart get carried away; but guys, I like him. He makes me want to be a better person.
So here is where it gets a little complicated, this other girl I know likes him alot. They seem alot closer and I view her as so much prettier, smarter and likable than me; she’d be the obvious choice between the two of us. But here is the thing, my ‘friend’ reckons that he likes me but idk. Maybe he is just being friendly? Maybe I’m just reading too deep into this.
All I know is that I’m crushing, hard on this guy. When I think about him, I get butterflies. This just feels different. I hope he likes me. He probably doesn’t but that doesn’t stop me wishing. I pray for him as much as I can. I want us to be good friends, if not more. I care about him, God. O, God please help me. Did you put him in my life for a reason? I just feel like there is something between us. Is this more than wishful thinking?
